I need to get my thoughts out of my head. They’re not helping.
You don’t know me. You might think you do, from reading my blog posts, but you’ll never truly know me until you’ve had to deal with my inconsistency, my mood swings and my inability to focus.
My partner has had to deal with those every day for the past 4–5 years. My mind isn’t calm, no matter how much I want it to be. It’s not empty, and there’s no serene waterfall. My mind is a chaotic mess of thoughts.
And they’re not always positive thoughts, or happy thoughts, or cheerful thoughts. They’re stressful, and they’re emotionally exhausting. Today, I was eating pancakes and reading through an incredible submission for the Voidist. I felt good.